Wenwen Full of emotions ♥

Sunday, January 2, 2011 , 1:47 AM

Happy 2011 People!!!!

It's been weeks since i last up

date already..

No choice, was damn busy at work as it was the last month of 2010..

Everyday was full of stuff

for me to update..

Totally no time to do my own stuff.

Plus have been OT for almost everyday..

Tired die me.. T^T

Well, Brought new toys recently,

And that is ~

Ta da ~

Contact lens !!

Haas.. Brought those type of contact lens that can make your eye big big wan! =X

Was wearing black colour for this.

And blue for this.. xD

Been enjoying wearing contact lens as it makes my eye looks bigger.. =x

Had lots of fun the last week,

as it was christmas and new year..

Christmas was fun,

My gals came up to my place and play like crazy..

Was playing WII, and my hand ache like hell.. =.='''

But all of us did enjoy, esp my mom..

Play with my gals till damn high.. xD

Alot of things happen but i'm lazy to list all of it out..

And i get to know someone.. =x

hehes..

And i got one new gan mei,

For this new year,

Never went count down,

Alot of things happen as well..

But on the eve of new year,

I treat my mom to eat Fish & Co.

And brought an AX watch as my christmas present..

First time treat myself so good..

But my heart ache like hell.. T^T

But nice right? hehehes..

Today first day of new year,

Went to buy clothes, and i spend alot also..

OMG!!!!

Heart pain.. T^T

And i went out to have supper with my lovely gals..

My mom gets to noe new fren today as well..

They enjoy super alot today..

Overall, I'm glad to know all of my gals,

It's been 5 years plus since i know them..

Gals, keep the years counting alright??? ((:

And i'm gonna go taiwan on march.. =x

Wheee... Can't wait for that day to come.. xD

Well, well keep you posted if blogger stops giving me problems..

Shall go sleep now..

Tada people ~

Nights.. ((:

♥ Love by Wenwen ♥

Monday, December 6, 2010 , 1:36 AM

Had a long weekend..

Suppose to have a 4 days to enjoy..

Ended up 1 day MC..

So a total of 5 days to play and enjoy..

2nd Dec,

meet up with Si char bo merlyn and her fren to have dinner at shokudo,

was kinda like a early celebration for my birthday..

She spend like $90 for that dinner..

Felt guilty, and i got a shokudo member card for free..

LOL..

And everyone i know in shokudo say i grown fatter,

of cause la.. Work in office, eat liao sit.. =='''

It's hard not to get fat lor..

Anyway after that walked around,

went bugis street and i brought a tube dress for myself.. xD

That char bo really spend alot on that day..

She brought quite a few things also..

On my actual birthday which is 3rd dec,

i went to grandma house to eat..

Collected ang bao also.. =X

I purely wanted to eat the mee sua my ah ma cooked for me,

but i didn't expect my grandparents will give me ang bao..

Well after that, went to JP to buy cake for myself..

Sound so damn pityful right?

Spend $50 on 5 slices of cake and got their member card plus $60 worth of voucher..

I told merlyn about it and she scold me.. =.=''

Ask me go all the way to yishun than she buy for me..

Crazy lor..

*For your info, I still left 2 1/2 slices in my fridge..*

4th dec, Meet Mao, The one that i scolded previously,

She wanted to meet me to pass me present..

So i agree, But i still couldn't careless about her..

After that meet my gals to have dinner at bugis..

Suppose to have steamboat but change due to they gonna have a few more steamboat party coming up, i fine with anything actually..

After we ordered our food, Chris ask Cong to accompany her to buy some stuff,

I didn't notice anything so i tell them to go ahead and nanny stayed with me..
Little did i know,

They brought browine cake for me..

I was stun at that moment..

They say it was to celebrate for me..

But after our swensen dinner,

There was hardly enough space for our tummy to put in that brownie,

so i suggested after movie or something..

Walked to illuma to see what show we still can watch..

Alot of show we don't wanna watch and when no one decide what to watch,

I suggested "The Huanted House Project" which i regretted..

Starting of the show was damn boring can!

But after that was much better..

Quite scary.. Even me *i was consider the brave one*

also tio scare tio.. *Laughs*

After that we took cab to nanny's house..

Suppose to take 1 cab, 4 different places,

But the first cab driver really BTH him sia..

Knn, like kanna possess like that..

happy happy, drive fast fast,

no car infront, suddenly drive till like want to stop.. =.='''

Anyway, the three of them really kanna scare by the movie..

All calling their parents / bf to come down and wait for them..

Cong even ask me, "want me call you talk on phone till you reach home?"

I was like, "Crazy uhh? 3rd story nia.. No need la.."

Than they all admit they gutless..

I was like LOL!!

But overall i was happy as they still bother to spend time with me.. ((:

And now i have another brownie cake in my fridge.. =.='''

How on earth am i gonna finish all the cakes!! T^T

5th dec which is yesterday,

Went out to ABC market to have dinner..

Suppose to be my treat as i promise my grandparents that once i got my pay i will treat them,

which i delay till now.. =X

But don't know why,

my uncle suddenly pass me and ask me to act as my own money..

I feel bad sia..

It was like, i suppose to treat than you suddenly pass me money..

I still want to say thank you uncle.. ((:

After went ikea and walk around, and home aftermath..

P.S : I simply love my grandparents alot! =3

6th dec which is today,

I randomly went to merlyn's blog and i was shock by what i saw..

She actually patch back with the guy that i hated damn alot..

That guy better reflect on what he have done,

if not, not only me but all of her best friends will hunt you down!!

To Char bo Merlyn:

This is the decision you've made,

No one can stop you.

We as friends,

Wants you to be happy.

Whatever you do,

Be happy with the decision you've made.

And no matter what,

Be strong.

Stop letting him controlling your life like before,

If he really wants you back,

make sure he is not like what he used to be,

Controlling you like a freak.

And since he know we *including your own family* hate him,

he better watch what he is doing.

As if there is a next time he will sure get it from us.

And all in all,

I want you to be happy,

So you must be happy alright?? ((:

♥ wenwen will always be here for you.. ((: ♥

Sunday, November 28, 2010 , 4:12 PM

When to sakura at cck today to have the lunch buffet.

It was the second time i went there.

Overall not bad. as not many people are there and we don't have to wait for so long to get our food.

But the waiter and waitress there really cannot make it.

They will come over and clear plates at a time.

Those that we empty already still don't wanna clear for us.. =.='''

Well, we had a good laugh.. Laugh till stomach pain..

Cause we were talking about my ex, my bro ex and our bastard father..

We really laugh till piang.. xD

Mom and bro pay for this meal as to early "celebrate" my birthday..

Next week, i'm off on fri and the following mon..

Woots ~

4 days off..

Fri and sat i've plans already..

As for sun and mon,

We'll see how it goes.. =D

And i really need to chiong OT already..

Have to OT at least 20-30hrs..

If not i won't have enough to spend..

I already miss out 3 sat,

I have to go back on the last sat for the whole day..

Just to cover up for the others..

Well.. That will be all for now ~

Wenwen signing off ~

Saturday, November 27, 2010 , 10:13 PM

Suppose to go back to work today..

End up overslept.. =.='''

There goes my 4hrs of money.. arrghh!!

Thought i called my supervisor to tell him i not going to work.

Till i wake up ad realise i never called him at all..

Was dreaming.. =.='''

After that when i was fully awake,

tried calling him twice yet he never pick up the phone..

WTH can.. So decided to text him, no replies..

I'm so gonna get say by him on Monday..

Tsk..

Went to bugis to get my laptop fixed,

but have to pay like $70 - $80 plus just to get it fixed.

Was suggested to buy a mini keyboard as it was cheaper.

So brought a key board.

Had a hard time keying all this in.. =.='''

Some moron added me in msn ytd..

Someone that knew me and my office msn.

But i couldn't care less.

He/she added me just to scold me..

Saying i'm fat and stuff..

I was surprise as i was not a bit angry at all,

i was laughing when i was reading at what he/she was scolding me about.

I even said thanks with a smiley face..

Haahaas.. I guess i piss he/she off even more..

Just one thing to tell you:

"Nice try bud, tried harded next time. but tell me in the face is way better than hiding behind the com and scold me, maybe i will be piss off.. ((:

And i may be fat, but that doesn't concern you does it?

So what if guys online talked to me?

It's their problem not mine,

I can't stop them from talking to me can i?

Get a life, don't be jealous of a fat girl like me.. ((:

I'm not gonna bring myself down to your level by scolding back at you.. ((: "

Well, I'm signing off now.

Tomorrow still got lunch buffet to go to.

Have to wake up early..

Nights ~ ((:

Thursday, November 25, 2010 , 12:17 PM

I'm almost on the verge of breaking down already.

Due to the workload i have.

Everything comes at once.

Make me so lost and blur,

don't even know where to start with.

But luckily,

i'm able to finish with i'm doing.

Got scolding from Merlyn a.k.a PY my <3

Cause i told her i only left with $2 for today..

Wahahahahahas..

Than she scold me say why i never tell her.. =='''

My pattern,

No matter how hard my life is,

I won't ask my friend for help.

But i'll help them if they are in need.

That's me.. ((:

Woohoo!!

This month pay power power sia..

Been OT quite long..

And my pay.. Nice one man!

And 1 week plus later,

My iphone4.. xD

I can't wait for it to come.. =X

Next week will be kinda busy week for me..

Made some plans for my birthday..

Will update again.. xD

Wenwen signing off.. And in love with Merlyn.. ((:

Sunday, November 21, 2010 , 2:30 AM

KNNBCCB LA HOR!!!

So this is what i get for being friends with you for 5 years..

After all that i have done for you,

and this is what i get?

Fuck it la hor..

Why am i friends with you in the first place when i hated you so much??

Why do i even care for you?

Why am i there when u needed me?

Why do i always remember your stuff and not mine??

Is this what i get for being fucking DUMB???

I'm friends with you cause you talk to me first.

I'm friends with you because you let me join your group.

And i TRUSTED YOU!!

Yet this is what i get after 5 years..

Now i've known your true colours..

Thanks alot leh..

REALLY THANKS!!

I don't even fucking know why i forgive you in the first place.

Why i even talked to you.

Why i even hang out with you..

Be with your fucking bf,

Be with your fucking new friends.

Don't ever fucking talk to me and find me!!

Cause i won't fucking entertain you..

Don't even bother saying hi to me when you saw me on the streets..

Cause i won't fucking give a fucking DAMN to you..

I've been backstab too many times..

I've been stupid for far too long..

I won't be the girl that you once know me anymore..

I text you asking if you were free,

you replied saying you won't be free on those 2 days.

I replied "ok, nvm take it as i never say anything."

And all you fucking reply was "Okay, sure (:"

Without even asking why..

And Really thanks to you,

I'm not gonna celebrate anyone's birthday.

SERIOUSLY THANKS ALOT!!

Fucking ruin everything..

I'll stand and watch how long you will last..

All i'm gonna say now is:

"FUCK YOU BITCH!"

I totally don't trust anyone else except myself..

No one is gonna be there when i needed them,

No one is gonna lend me their shoulder when i cry,

No one is ever gonna listen to me..

So why should i do those to you??

For fuck??

I'm really at my boiling point already..

Fuck those who ruin my life!!

May you burn in HELL!!!!

Friday, November 19, 2010 , 6:38 PM

Haix..

It's another boring day..

Keep falling asleep in office..

Too tired liao la,

keep not enough sleep..

Now thinking whether should i come back for OT tomorrow anot..

As i still have quite alot of stuff for me to finish..

I'm now blogging in office.. =X

See..... Now still in office slacking and doing slowly.. =.='''

Should i come back tomorrow?

Ok la, tomorrow come back for half day ba..

Than meet mom go bugis to fix my laptop..

After that go meet axel at city hall than come back to jurong to teach him play pool..

Tomorrow will be another busy day for me..

Hopefully tomorrow i'm able to wake up and come back..

Falling sick soon..

Hopefully don't fall sick now..

Can't afford to fall sick sia..

T^T

wenwen signing off ~

Thursday, November 18, 2010 , 11:06 PM

Sian sia..

KNN!! My laptop so many button not working when i was

taking good care of it.. WTF la!!!

Nvm, if i go repair you and u still give me problems,

i'm so gonna replace you with a new one..

Trust me, i will do it..

Today in office busy like hell,

So many things to do,

so little time..

But i all take my own sweet time.. =X

Hais..

Don't know what to do..

Tomorrow friday,

but like no different as i spend most of my time in office..

Saturday need to go back for OT some more..

If never go back, my things sure cock up..

Haix..

Don't know liao la..

Hopefully saturday will be a better day as i'm meeting axel to

teach him how to play pool. (Though i suck at it.. ) xD

Heck care la.. ((:

Must enjoy..

, 12:26 AM

It's been so damn long since i last updated..

Well i'm gonna start blogging again as the kind merlyn help me with all my blog skins and stuff.

Can't let her effort go down the drain, can i? ((:

Meet merlyn on friday after work to watch megamind.

It's not a bad show to watch.

Some part was funny.

But it's educational at the same time as well..

*Who say bad guy can't be a good guy for once?*

After movie, we slack around northeast point yishun.

Than went to her house to stay over.

Talk alot..

Suppose to go home today,

but she ask me whether wan drop me off at kallang mrt anot,

as she was late meeting her friend and she scare her friend will nag at her.

Since it's green line and i can take all the way home.

So i agree,

but since i came all the way here,

i decided to accompany her to cover up her tattoo..

So nice of me right? Haas..

It took 4 hours plus to put 2 tattoos,

but wasn't completly cover up as she cannot stand the pain anymore..

So the next session will be next month..

The tattoo damn nice la..

But at the same time,

dame pain..

I once thought of putting also,

as it was quite nice..

But on second thought,

I don't want to waste the money and put the pain on my body.

Later i regret, it will be totally too late..

Went to town to meet her frens for dinner,

she treat..

Awwww..

So nice right? Haas..

But i also accompany her the whole day lehh..

Oops..

Nahx..

i'm not so bad..

I'm treating her to shokudo next month.. ((:

Well, Suppose to really go home,

but i suddenly ask her where got sell those kind of comfy slipper that can be worn at home..

She bring me back to cineleisure More Than Words.

Saw a pair of cute pink colour bunny slipper (though i hate pink)..

Bought it without second thoughts..

Damn cute la.. xD

Brought another headphone that i always wanted..

Kinda cheap and thus,

bought it without second thought as well..

Overall,

I had a fun day as it was long since i last meet merlyn this siao char bo.. xD

It's kinda late now,

i'm heading off to bed.. ((:

Wednesday, November 17, 2010 , 3:29 AM

The safest wall in Seoul, Korea

, 12:37 AM

I'm at PY's house now & i love her :D

Wednesday, April 21, 2010 , 7:03 AM

It's been ages, i mean AGES since i last update
my blog.. How's everyone? Hopefully fine.. ((:

Well.. I've been staying at home ever since
i quitted my last job.. Haven't find new one
cause my leg infection haven okie.. So sad..

Was waiting for my leg to get better than go
find new job.. Really need to help out family
plus save up enough money to go taiwan trip
next year with my lovely girls.. And i've grown
fat liao.. LOL..

Hmmm.. What else to write? Oh ya.. i lose faith
in guys lehh.. I don't know why but i just can't
seem to find the right one to give me de security
that i need.. I now can't really trust guys except
for friends as friends are different unless you're
a jerk.. If you happen to be a jerk, get out of my
life as i don't need you..

I've been in so many fucked up relationship..
It really makes me wonder is there really
something call true love exist??

For some people that have found their true
love than for them it exist.. But for me i doubt
so as non of my relationship last for months or
even years.. Unless you consider those talk on
phone and sms type as one than i have one..
It lasted for about 2years.. It's damn amazing
that i can be in this kind of unreal relationship
for so damn long.. I, myself can't believe it either..
I don't know why but i was really happy talking to
him.. *Though most of the time he makes me angry
and when i scold him, he will cry.. Haas*
He can be a jerk sometime, as when we always
agree to meet up, he always and i mean ALWAYS
last minute will put me plane wan luhh.. And it
happen damn alot of times.. I always find excuse
for him which is one reason i don't know why..
Maybe cause that time i really love him?? I really
don't know why even till today..
Hmm.. Enough of him ba.. It's the past already..

Well.. Now there's this other guy, we've broke
up already.. I though we will last also.. But end
up also the same.. Less than a month.. Many of
you will be wondering now, how come broke up
again?? This time seriously it's not my fault.. Is
him.. He was de one who suggested to broke up
with me when we quarrel.. And of cause i agree..
Since he can say this word out so easily, means
he don't really love me that muc as i expected..
Alot of things happen but i don't wish to mention..
Well, now he keep asking me for second chance
when i don't have the faith to trust guys and in
love.. He tell me he still love me and wants me to
stay by his side.. But how can i do that when i lost
faith in all this stuff?? I really don't know..
I've told him, if you can wait you wait.. If not move
on ba, cause i now don't have the faith to go in a
relationship.. Know what he say? One second he say:
I will wait.. Than another second : Haix if no just tell
me than i won't disturb you anymore..
I was like: WHAT THE FUCK?? Here you tell me
this than there you tell me that..
If you really can't wait, do wad i tell you.. Move on
and find a better girl.. As i'm damn sure there's a lot
better looking and better condition than me de girls
out there de.. I'm not even worth your time waiting
for me.. That's all what i'm gonna say.. Want to listen
or not it's up to you..
If not you do something that will make me change my
point of view of guys ba.. If not i need time.. But i'll
doubt you will do anything expect asking me for second
chance.. And that's it..

Well i will end here.. Cause now my mind damn empty..
Really need some rest.. Well update my blog often..
But in order to do that i have to stop beong so lazy.. =x
Haas..

♥Wenwen♥

Tuesday, March 16, 2010 , 6:43 AM

Ok seriously.. My blog is so fucking dead.. =.=

Really need to blog often lehh.. Arbo this blog

can throw away liao.. LOL.. Well.. How should i

start?? So freaking long never blog and i am stuck

at what i should write.. =.=

Hmm.. Let me think...

*Thinking*

.................................

Ok.. Nothing comes up in my mind.. ZzzzZz.. =.=

Well just make it short..

Overall not bad.. Need to save money for my

overseas trip to taiwan next year..

Need to lose weight..

Need to find new job..

Need to think alot of things..

Well.. Know alot of new friends..

Thry are nice at times and mean at times..

Haas..

Need to stop being so blur..

And i love my bi de most!! xD

Stop here ba.. think of what to write than post

again..

♥wenwen♥

Sunday, February 21, 2010 , 11:12 AM

Wahahaha.. So long bo blog liao.. And my blog is getting cold..

=.=

Well.. First of all, Happy CNY people.. I know i went missing

for quite long.. Well.. I'm lazy to blog as i'm busy chionging

my new maple character.. ZzzzZzzz..

Some fucker login my main and set 2nd password and

TADA!! I can't login.. ZzzzZZZ Damn du lan la.. Is like

i hardly train till lvl so high end up like that.. Than now

need retrain more dulan.. ZzzZzzZzz.. But lucky enough,

i got help from friends in the game to sponser me some

money and item for me to train if not, i think i quit maple

already.. I didn't quit cause they all ask me don't quit..

Haas.. Make alot of new friends le..

Well to keep it short and simple, i've been home mostly

all the time.. Never go out.. Haas.. Lazy ar, bo bian..

Than in a blink of an eye, CNY.. ZzZzzzZzz.. Lucky i no

need to think about the clothes i need to buy.. Cause i

have some in my closet which i never wear before..

Haas.. So its a good news though..

Well, CNY mean nothing to me as its Valentines day

as well.. Damn sian la.. Both special day at the same day..

But i'm glad its a good CNY and Valentines day as i didn't

waste it.. Haas..

Well second day of CNY was suppose to go to gan ma's

house, but due to heavy rain, we deciede

to stay home and sleep all the way.. xD

Third day we than go to my gan ma's house..

After that, off to Benson and Lingwei ai de xiao

wu to bai nian.. (By the way, their my guild members

form the game maple..) Meet alot of new friends la..

All are friendly not as i expected it to be though.. Cause

in game, they are all so fierce than meet in real life le,

all are so friendly.. We stayed there till 4 plus and i manage

to physco 1 of them to send me home cause if i take cab from

seng kang all the way home, it will be like so freaking ex la..

Wah.. About 50 plus lehh, mai siao siao.. Haas..

Really grateful to him.. xD save my $50 plus.. =.=

After that home all the way till Hazel from coffee club

ask me to go down to fill up interview form, and WALA!

i'm starting work next week.. ZzzZzzZzZ..

So fast hor? Haas.. Bo bian le.. They need people and i need

$_$... Haas..

So i won't be blogging often le.. But will try to blog as

much as i can from what i'll be doing this coming weekday..

Don't miss me uhh.. xD

♥Wenwen♥

Wednesday, February 3, 2010 , 2:04 AM

Never blog for almost a week liao..

Cause i went to my grandparents house

and stay without bringing my laptop..

Here's what happen last week:

27th jan 2010 (Wednesday)

Went to my grandparents house and

stay for the first day.. The reason i

went there to stay cause i need to do

my 6 days notice if i wanna quit my

job.. And the outlet that i'm doing my

notice is at Holland Village..

First day at work there wasn't as bad

as i thought.. Cause i saw a familiar

face that i once saw when i was at HQ

reciving my training..

The people there was nice.. Totally

friendly.. Not like those in IMM..

Not friendly.. Make some new friends..

So still not bad..

28th jan 2010 (Thursday)

Second day at work.. It was really

tough as there is 3 story.. 1st and 2nd

story can sit customer.. And 3rd is the

kitchen where you have to get the food

and send it to 1st and 2nd floor, so it was

kinda like running up and down the stairs..

Lucky i was on the second floor.. So i only

need to send drinks to the 1st and 2nd floor

as the bar is at the 1st floor.. Kinda dumb right??

Leg was freaking painful as i bring the wrong shoe

to wear for work..

But overall i manage to take all the orders without

any mistake expect that i need to borrow card

form other staff to key in the order as i don't have

my own card and it was such a pain..

29th jan 2010 (Friday)

It's worst today.. Alot of customer came to have

drinks and stuff so it was like pain in the neck..

Need to run up and down like mad.. Really

tiring la.. Leg painful like hell also..

But everything was under control.. So i guess

it was alright..

30th jan 2010 (Saturday)

As expected.. More customer today.. And i have

to work on the 2nd floor today.. Fucking tired..

Cause people who work at the 2nd floor,

have to go up to the 3rd floor which is the kitchen,

to get all the food and send it to the 1st and 2nd floor..

Abit dumb la.. Put the kitchen at the 3rd floor.. -.-

And i started to notice that i'm getting fatter..

31st jan 2010 (Sunday)

Was station at 2nd floor again.. But lucky someone

funny came up to accompany me talk so time past

quite fast.. Alot of the people there keep ask me

to stay.. They keep say: " Why all the people that

can work want leave, than those cannot work want

stay.. "

I told them i maybe will go back work after

Chinese New Year.. Cause my leg got a bad infection..

Really hurting me like fuck..

The people there is happy that i will go back and

work.. Haas..

1st feb 2010 (Monday)

Last day of work today.. Afternoon time wasn't so

busy.. But till going night time, it was busy like

hell.. They not enough people work also.. They

wanted me to stay till closing but i can't.. So

i was being nice, i told them i help them settle all

the customer first than i go.. And they are happy..

Today meet lots of interesting customer also..

Haas.. Some of them was really nice but some

really cannot make it..

Lucky there's still understanding customer..

If not, the place that i work confirm got alot

of complain.. LOL..

And i really realise that my stomach is growing

fatter.. What the hell is wrong with me??

2nd feb 2010 (Tuesday)

Went to work place and return my uniform

and than cab home.. Mom gave bro money

to let us take cab as mom knows that i'm suffering

with leg pain.. So she was nice.. Haas..

Went home feels damn great..

Went to see doctor at around 8pm for my

stupid leg.. Doctor say i got infection so he

gave me some cream to apply..

Brought spaghetti at my place there and

home to maple..

When i online maple, i was FUCKING PISS OFF!!

"SOME PEOPLE FUCKING GOOD!!"

Use my account without permission and somemore

use my stuff..

He still dare say he message me i never reply,

i was like, WHAT THE FUCK?? I never even

recieve any message luhh.. He can call but he choose

not to call.. ZzzzzZzz.. Really piss off la..

He can't even think, i help him with so many stuff,

yet he like that say me.. SI BEI DU LAN!!

I trusted you with my account yet you go make use

of it.. If that's what you call BFF, than forget about it

la..

Better stop using my account for your own bloody

benefits!! If not i rather get my account banned

or give away all my stuff than let you make use of

it!! Damn it!!

♥DEADwenwen♥

Sunday, January 24, 2010 , 3:35 PM

KNN CB!! TODAY IS A DAMN FUCKING

DAY FOR ME.. DAMN DU LAN.. RELATIVE

CAN BE UNTIL LIKE THAT.. FUCK OFF LA

BICTH.. JUST BECAUSE OF YOUR "LITTLE"

BLOODY HELP, YOU NEED SO HAO LIAN..

I'M THE ONE WHO IS IN THE WRONG,

YOU NEED SCOLD MY WHOLE FAMILY

BLOODY HELL?? YOU HOW OLD ALREADY?

SCOLD A GIRL YOUNGER THAN YOU, YOU

FEEL PROUD IS IT?? KNN!! BITCH YOU

DAMN NO SHAME LA.. GET A LIFE LA BITCH!!

WE DON'T NEED A RELATIVE LIKE YOU!!

IF YOU NOT HAPPY WITH ANYTHING, COME

TO ME LA!! I'M NOT SCARE OF YOU!! STILL

SAY WHAT DON'T LET YOU SEE ME IF NOT

I WILL GET A HUGH SLAP FROM YOU..

YOU THINK YOU WHAT?? WANT SLAP

JIU SLAP AR?? COME LUHH.. WHEN I CALL

POLICE THAT TIME YOU DON'T CRY AND

BEG ME!!

STILL DARE SAY WHAT, I DON'T RESPECT

OLDERS?? WHY SHOULD I RESPECT

SOMEONE LIKE YOU?? YOUR JUST A

FUCKING OLD BITCH THAT DON'T DESERVE

MY RESPECT AT ALL!!

IF YOUR IN THE WRONG, AND I SCOLD

YOUR WHOLE FAMILY, YOU WILL HAPPY

ANOT?? IF YOU WILL, I DON'T MIND

SCOLDING YOU EVERY SINGLE DAY!!

SAY ME STUPID GIRL.. KNN, THAN YOU

WHAT?? FUCKING OLD DUMB BITCH??

GET A LIFE MAN.. CB!!

NOW YOU HAPPY LA!! MY MOM ALMOST

KILL HERSELF, IF ANYTHING HAPPEN TO

HER, I'LL MAKE SURE NOT ONLY YOU, BUT

YOUR WHOLE FAMILY TO PAY FOR WHAT

HAPPEN TO HER!!

KNN.. BETTER DON'T LET ME SEE YOU..

THINK YOU OLDER THAN ME THAN

BIG DEAL?? BITCH!! I WON'T REGRET

WHAT I SAY HERE!! KNN!! YOUR WHOLE

FAMILY BETTER GET KILLED IN CAR CRASH!!

AND AFTER YOU DIE, FEEL FREE TO COME

FIND ME.. I'M NOT SCARE OF YOU..

SAY I BRING SHAME TO MY MOM, SO

WHAT IF I DO?? YOU GOT A PROBLEM

WITH THAT?? ALSO NOT YOUR PROBLEM

LA!! THIS IS BETWEEN ME AND MY MOM,

YOU HAVE NO RIGHT TO CHAP IN LA HOR!!

KNN CB!!!

AND NOW I KNOW, THIS IS WHAT FRIENDS

ARE FOR.. I'M ALREADY PISS OFF AND

FUCKING DULAN ALREADY, YOU STILL

CAN SAY ME UNTIL LIKE WHAT.. COME ON

LA.. IT'S JUST A GAME YET YOU NEED

TO TAKE IT SO SERIOUSLY!! MY MOM

ALMOST KILL HERSELF YET YOU STILL

CAN SAY THIS KIND OF THING.. IF GAME

IS MORE IMPORTANT THAN OUR

FRIENDSHIP AND FAMILY, THAN I TELL

YOU, WE'RE NO LONGER FRIENDS..

I HELP YOU WITH SO MANY THINGS

YET YOU CAN SAY THIS KIND OF THINGS

TO ME.. (YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE!!)

STILL TELL ME SAY WHAT, BFF AND

STUFF.. IF THIS IS WHAT YOU MEAN BY

BFF, THAN WE STOP ALL THIS BFF

STUFF.. I'M SICK OF PEOPLE MAKING

USE OF ME..

AND THIS IS WHY I HAVE TO LEAVE

MY BLOODY MASK ON!! I CAN TRUST

NO ONE.. NO ONE IS WORTH MY TRUST!!

IF YOU WANT MY LIFE JUST TAKE IT MAN!!

I'M FUCKING TIRED OF MY LIFE!! IF YOU

ARE HAPPY THAT I'M GONE, I WILL DO

SO!! NO ONE WILL EVEN NOTICE THAT

I'M GONE.. NO ONE WILL MISS ME AS WELL!!

FUCK CARE PEOPLE WILL MISS ME ANOT,

CAUSE I WILL DEFINATELY NOT MISS PEOPLE

LIKE YOU!!

♥DEADwenwen♥

, 12:35 AM

She's nothing but a piece of junk..

Everyone hates her.. And i mean

EVERYONE!!.. No one loves her..

No one likes her.. No one wants to

be with her..

She always try to make people

around her happy.. She will try

all ways to make people around

her happy cause she wants them

to be happy.. She don't want her

friends to be sad.. So no matter

her friend's smile is important

to her..

But some how, she only manage

to make people smile, but not

herself.. She will always be wearing

a mask when she is with her friends..

She don't want her friends to worry

about her cause she will feel bad if

her friend worry about her.. She don't

want it to happen..

What mask is she wearing, you may be

asking.. Well.. She's wearing a mask that

she will be happy on the outside but in fact,

she's crying on the inside.. No one know

about how she is feeling.. Not even her close

friend, her mom or her family.. NO ONE!!!

Everyone hates her, and she hates everyone

as well..

She FUCKING hate her FUCKING life..

Nothing in her life goes well for her..

And she fucking hate her mom now!!

All she does is nag nag nag.. She say till

everything is her fault.. Why can't her

mom think??

When she was less than 14 years old,

she has to start working and studying

where else other kids her age will only

be concentrating on studying and playing..

Is this fair for her?? She already has no

childhood yet she still has to suffer and

take all this stress when she was so young..

All her mom does is to nag and nag and

complain about this and that.. Saying it was

for her own good and stuff.. But she don't

find it was for her own good luhh.. It's

for her mom's own good.. She don't want

to talk about her life anymore as it brings

back bad memories..

She really hope someday, she could remove

her mask and be herself.. She really wanna

be herself but she's afraid.. She's really afraid..

She already know what the world is like when

she had her mask on.. But what will happen

to her when she remove her mask?? She

don't think she could withstand all this..

For now, she will just leave her mask on when

she is facing the world.. She won't be removing

it anytime soon.. Not till she is ready.. Or along

the way someone help her to remove her mask

and let her reveal her true feelings to him or her..

But it will be hard for her to do that as well

as she needs a super duper long time..

She really had a hard life.. Though she

know she can never compare to people

that has a harder life than hers..

But compare to her friends, she has a hard

life.. Sometimes she hopes she can be her

friend.. Seeing how good their life is..

Everynow and then, inside her heart, she

is crying.. Even now.. But she won't show

it out unless she really cannot take it

anymore.. She hate's to show her weak side

to her friends or family..

So sorry to dissappoint to people that

wanted to see her cry.. She will NOT show

it out to you.. She will only give you a smile

or a emotionless face.. Nothing more than

that..

She really hoped to be love by someone

someday.. But she knows that day will

never come..So she took out her heart,

seal it and keep it somewhere where no

one could ever find it.. If someone happen

to find it, bring it back to her and put it

back inside her.. But till that day come,

she will be heartless and she won't feel

love..

♥DEADwenwen♥

Saturday, January 23, 2010 , 1:44 AM

She's sleeping late night again..

Today she never go work.. Cause

she's having difficult breathing

when she was sleeping at night..

Keep toss and turn.. Almost

cannot breath.. God was there

to take her away.. But for some

reason, god stop and let her live..

God!! Why did u stop taking her

life away?? Why did you leave her

there when she needed you the most??

Her mom scold her and everything..

If you took her away with you.. All

this would not have happen..

Recently, she's having difficult

breathing.. She don't know why is

this happening to her.. She wants

it gone once and for all.. She's not

gonna make it..

She's really hating her life that

much that she wants her life to

end now.. She really cannot take it

anymore.. Why people have to

treat her this why?? Is this what

she deserve to get treated??

People tend to take her for granted..

Ask her for help and stuff.. And brush

her aside when she's done her job..

Why does she have to go through all

this?? Once is enough, but now?

Nevermind.. She's dead.. But at least

she's happy living with her little one

now.. Nothing else matter's more than

her little one now.. Now the most precious

thing to her is her little one.. Cause

she's gonna spend with her little one

for a lifetime.. Till the day she die..

She will never stay and be apart

with her little one.. As long as one day

she breaths, she will hang on to her

little one.. As the only reason for her

to keep hanging on is her little one..

She's gonna sleep now.. As she and her

little one is tired.. Both of them need

some rest.. She still got work tomorrow..

And she will do anything to protect her

little one from getting harm.. Don't try..

She mean what she say..

♥DEADwenwen♥

Thursday, January 21, 2010 , 10:18 PM

I'm proud to annouce that Wenwen's DEAD!! She's
dead from the moment what he reply her..
She thought she know everything, but in fact,
she doesn't.. She's stupid, idiot, irritating,
pestering, troublesome, and everything about
her sucks.. She's nothing but a dumb piece of
shit.. Nothing about her is great.. She's so stupid
that people make use of her and she's ok with it..
She's so stupid that people ask her to die, she won't
hastitate to die.. She's irritating cause she always pester
and irritate people without knowing.. She's troublesome
cause she always want people to help her with stuff..
She hates her life so much that she wants to end it..
And yea, she's done it..
She cause of a guy, want him back, listen to him
and quit smoking.. But in the end, she got nothing

back as that guy don't believe that she stop smoking..

He still said :" you want smoke just smoke, don't find
excuses.."
When she heard the way he say, her heart has been
broken into pieces that it will never mend back..
Why doesn't he believe her? She don't know and
will never know..
Now she's dead.. Her heart's dead, brain's dead,
everything about her is dead.. This is just so great..
She's nothing but a living zombie without any feelings
and will never feel any love ever again.. NEVER..
She's now P_ _ _ _ _ _ _.. She's living with her
little one now.. Don't ask me what does it means..
She won't say, it's for her to know and for you to
find out.. If you happen to know, don't ask her..
As she won't tell.. And it doesn't make any difference
even if you know..

What she wants to say is that, stop making her this
way.. Now she don't have any feeling liao.. And stop
taking her for granted!! She's not what you think she
is.. So easy to make use.. So people that want to make
use of her, better fuck off.. She's not her anymore..
She's just a living zombie that don't know what to do..

I pity her.. For having this kind of life.. But it can't be
help.. As no one can help her.. No one understand her
and even she don't understand herself.. She wanted to
kill herself since primary 3 till now.. So one day, she will
succeed in killing herself.. She had such a miserable life
that no one knows and no one have gone through.. So
miserable that if you happen to know, you will find it
unfair that all this happen to her.. She has no childhood,
no parents love no nothing.. She was born into this world
to carry blames and to be a punching bag.. She's nothing
but a piece of SHIT.. She's so extra, she wasn't suppose to
be born in this world.. Now she prays that god will take
her away as soon as possible!!

She hates herself, she hates her life and everything about
her.. she just don't want to be living in this damn world that
everything is so unfair to her.. She wanted to be gone forever..
Someone help her.. Be gone from this world..

She has nothing more to say.. She just want to be alone living
in her own world with her little one..

♥DEADwenwen♥

, 2:01 AM

Today first day start work at IMM..
Thought it will be fun, but who knows?
It's freaking boring and there is damn
alot of bloody rules to follow.. That's
the reason i hate being full timer..
All cause of my mom, i'm force to work
as full time.. ZzzzZzz.. Work there damn
Bo Hua!! Just by eating cost me more than
$4 liao.. -.- Stupid company.. Just for
today alone, i've spnd $50.. Damn dulan..
I don't want to talk about it liao.. Talk
about it makes me vomit blood..

Well after work, walk walk around.. When
i was about to go home, guess who i saw??
Guess Guess.. Haas.. Clueless right?? I saw
Nanny and Andrew having ROMANTIC dinner at
Fish and Co!! World indeed is small.. Like
that also can bump into them.. Haas..
Hmm.. Brought some snacks before i went
home.. Tomorrow i off, so i can stay up
late today.. Haas.. But sleeping soon also..

Think alot today.. Wanna quit today de work
lehh. Cause it sucks.. Mom ask me to work for
a while first.. So no point.. Rather go back
Shokudo and work.. Lol..

Anyway, mom cried today.. All cause of my stupid
brother.. Keep stay at home, don't want to find
job than keep talk back to her in a rude manner
(real rude, rude till when you hear it, you will
want to kill him!!).. Don't know why he will like
that.. Since young, mom treat him like treasure..
Treat me like shit.. Now leh?? Think it's bao yin
ba.. Don't really wanna say this but this is what
i saw.. [To all parents, DON'T just treat your
so as treasure and your daughter like shit.. Cause
it will get back to you sooner or later, like what
happen to my mom..

Oh ya.. Forget to mention, today when i was on my
way home, i almost got killed by a lorry near my
house.. If i never look up, i don't think i'll be
blogging now liao.. Would be resting in peace liao..
Haas.. Why did i look up?? Should have just let it
kill me so i'm free from all this stress.. And i
wouldn't have to think about so much things also..
Haix.. Well.. Let's just move on..

Things that i have done:
Find job..
(Consider half done cause wanna quit liao..)
Quit smoking..
(Fully done it!! For that someone who ask me to
quit : i've done it, but you won't believe me
so there's nothing i can do.. Believe it or not
is up to you as there is nothing i can do to
prove and show you..)
Gone out with my long lost friend..
(Fully done it as well.. Meet some of them out
of dinner and stuff..But still got some haven't
meet out yet.. Planning to save money and go
to taiwan next year with my girls.. So i'm
saving real hard!!)
Mature my thinking..
(Fully done it also.. Been growing up alot
since i broke up with him.. Think about
alot of stuff as well.. I really hope
i can get back to him, but till now
he haven't even give me answers yet..
Maybe i should just give up.. But i can't..
Guess i still love him.. Well who to blame
but me?? Now suffer de also me.. Don't want
to think liao.. Let fate decide ba.. Haix..)

Basically that's all for now ba.. Cause
don't know what to say liao as i'm having
a headache now..
Oh ya.. Wanted to say this to you:

I'm missing you, but you won't know as
you will never bother to find out.. Nothing
can be more important than you.. Nothing!!
Just wanna tell you, i love you.. Somehow,
i think i know what your answers will be..
But i just wanna hear it from you.. Be it
a Yes or No.. I can take it.. No matter what,
thanks for giving me a great time although
we've quarrel alot.. I really enjoy the time
being with you.. I really do.. Hmm.. Somehow,
what i say here, i know it's pointless le..
But i just want to say out how i feel..
What ever decision you make, be happy..
cause this way, i'll be happy too (although
it's hard, but i'll try my best..)

♥wenwen♥

Tuesday, January 19, 2010 , 9:13 PM

Yesterday wanted to blog about what happen
when i went to work on my first day de..
But than, my internet keep lagging like
fuck that makes me damn pissed off.. -.-
Well here's what happen yesterday and today..

Yesterday, 18th jan 2010 (Monday)
Went to the main office for my lesson.. Well
was late cause the night before, help jireh
level his maple char.. So have to sleep late..
And was late because of him.. ZzzzZZzz..
But the lucky thing was, i was not the one thats
so late.. So haas.. Lucky me..
Lesson at first was boring and scary.. -.-
Cause need to like study than still need self
intro (which i hates the most).. Lesson carry on
half way than suddenly, muffins arrived!! xD
Everyone was surprise.. We go our little tea
break and well, carry on with the lesson..
Around 11plus, we went to tour the bakery and
the kitchen that provide all the outlets stuff..
First was the kitchen.. We learn lots of things,
like how it was made, where it was store and etc..
What i hate the most was when we need to go in the
chiller and freezer.. It was FUCKING cold la.. Even
the boys also cannot take it.. -.- Almost freeze to
death.. LOL.. Worst thing was, the person that tell
us about all the stuff and order thingy keep on
going and going when we were STILL in the freezer!!
It was like can't we talk outside?? Its damn freezing
la.. Even the people work there need to wear glove and
thick jacket.. So think that u're the one in there
with normal clothes.. Confirm cannot take it la..
To top it off to make the cold worst.. I was having
flu and i was sick.. So yea! Wow! What a nice reward
on the first day.. -.-
After that we had lunch and continue with the lesson..
Our teacher try to keep it as interesting as possible
so that we won't half way fall alseep.. But bascially,
the way he talks and stuff was freaking funny la..
So really had fun..
After that, it was time to go home.. When i was in bus
calling the clinic as i wanted to get my injection done,
guess what?? I've called for so many times and yet no
one pick up the bloody phone.. Really piss off la..
Thinking that now i'm so freaking sleepy, it's the
best time to get my injection done as i wont have to
feel the pain and be scare.. But than.. This happen..
ZzzzZzz.. Oh well.. Gave up calling, Went jp to buy
hairclips and stuff and went to my mom's work place
de clinic to see doctor as i was still feeling unwell..
The doctor say i had a little infection in throat..
Lol.. Plus this and that which i don't wish to say
further.. Hmm.. Been thinking about him also, but..
Haix.. Haas.. Lol.. Went to bed around 12plus.. -.-

Today 19th jan 2010 (Tuesday)
Today woke up early, but still drag cause very tired..
Almost don't want go work de sia.. But my mom keep
Kao pei me call me wake up.. Lol.. Drag myself out
of, bath and put on make up.. Than off to work..
Half way to work, Jireh called me.. -.- He say he
today pon school than ask me pon work so he can
come my house and maple.. ZzzZzzz.. What the hell
right?? Haas.. (jireh don't get angry when you see
this.. Lol..) He keep ask me pon when i was already
half way to work.. Of cause i never agree la.. Crazy
mehx? Second day of work than MIA (Missing In Action)..
I not that siao luhh.. Later kick me out than good game..
So went to work late again.. -.- *Must be wondering why
this girl always late right?* Actually today really not
my fault sia.. I was at the bus-stop at 9.10, The bloody
bus was 20mins late.. ZzzzzZzz.. So not late become late..
Lol.. Than quickly change and go in class.. Haas..
Lesson was damn boring cause what he say i all know
already, but he keep making us laugh and stuff so
its ok also la.. Haas.. Made quite a few friends from
other outlet also.. So not bad also..
Took a few pics wearing uniform..

Abit bored la, so i go toilet and take picture..
Lol.. Haas..
And i miss him!! Still waiting for him to come
up with a decision.. But meanwhile, i'll try to
let him go cause i somehow got the feeling that
his heart no longer love me liao and other funny
funny feelings.. But i still love him though..
Haas.. One-sided love.. It will be terrible but
i will get use to it ba.. Haas..
People need you than find you, no need you can
totally forget about you.. That's how life is..
And i swear i won't so easily let them make use
liao.. So those people reading these (you know
who you are), be really sad that you can't make
use of me liao.. Haas!!! Damn you people who
tried to make use of me!!

Well, tomorrow offically start
working in the resturant leh.. So abit scare
and excited.. Haas.. Well.. I'll stop here..
Tomorrow will update again if my internet is
not lagging.. ((:

♥wenwen♥

Sunday, January 17, 2010 , 11:14 PM

Well never blog for 2 days plus lehh.. Haas.. So
i'm gonna write about what happen these 3 days..

15th jan 2010 (friday)
Woke up damn early in the morning.. Played maple
awhile went out to eat breakfast with my brother..
Home maple again till 5 plus.. Bath then off to his
house.. Played the whole night with vanessa.. Went
really crazy when we play.. I have to admit i'm
old liao.. Cause play with her awhile only makes
me so tired.. After playing, sleep through the night..
Haas.. He came in the room that i'm sleeping and
hug me to sleep, i slept like a baby sia.. Normally
i can't sleep but don't know why that night i can
sleep till so sweet..

16th jan 2010 (saturday)
Went to have breakfast at mac with him.. Ate big breakfast
for breakfast.. Well was kinda dumb though.. It was
weekend yet i still go order the $2.50 breakfast meal..
Make myself pai seh only.. LOL.. Damn dumb in the morning..
Haas.. For some reason, after i ate my breakfast i wanted
to vomit.. But i keep tahan.. On the way to his house,
he was sweet.. Keep asking me " Are you ok?" than
suddenly hold my hand.. I almost cried.. But once again
i tahan, cause i know he don't like girls to cry.. Well
all guys hate that right? Haas..
So when we reach his house, i chiong to the toilet and
vomit my all my breakfast out.. Like what the hell la!
Eat like never eat like that.. Waste my damn money also..
ZzzzZZzzz.. Than off to bed and rest awhile with him
hugging me as well.. Haas.. *Blush*
Work up shortly after that, cause meeting his gan
mummy for movie.. However, she was late for about
3hours.. But anyway, we went to use computer at
emax.. Finally know how to play "L4D" liao..
Haas.. At least i know a game that i can play with
guys friend.. Well i'm still a noob at that game
also.. Haas.. "Learning in process".. After movie
and all, accompany him to meet his buddies.. Felt
damn extra as i follow them around like "dog"
cause it was damn weird and i never really talk much
when i with them.. Felt damn extra.. But oh well..
He ignore me most of the time, only when i was walking
damn slow or he see me feeling unwell.. But that's all..
Went to his house after that and slept till morning..

17th jan 2010 (sunday)
Woke up early as well.. Hmm.. Than jireh message me ask
me where am i.. Lol.. End up he came my and play maple..
Haas.. Both of us damn super lame la.. Play maple.. Haas..
But before that when i'm still at his house i cried for
some reason that i don't even know why.. Haas..
After maple and everything, we went to have dinner at
jurong point.. Food wasn't so nice.. Went home vomit..
I swear i will stop eating if i'm gonna continue vomiting
like that.. Cause it's damn waste of money la.. Oh well..
Gonna go sleep liao, cause tomorrow starting my new job..
Guess what? I'm sick.. For goodness sake.. This kind of
time sick.. Haix.. Well.. Will update tomorrow about
my first day of job.. Nights everyone.. ((:

♥wenwen♥